One step.
One breath. 
One moment at a time.

Working hard enough just to earn this shit
You the center of my universe called that Copernicus.
This is bout to be 26.
Making plenty of mistakes
Taking too many licks.

There’s plenty of fish in the sea
But the one for me is special.
Must’ve crashed in from space
Cause the glow about her’s celestial.
Ethereal.

Made of wifey material
A hot cereal of chick
She Kinda thick
But not really if you try to stare at it.
Breath Thunderous.
Thunder thighs
Tryna build a foundation up under us.

She’s all I need, this is wondrous
Got all of me feeling all kinds of gusto
Examine you, to find all the things that’ll thrust you
into to greatness.

My lil honey bee.
Wine and dine you over charcuterie.
Boards
Ill support you like boards.
And before my smile gets inverted
You treat me how my mama would
Have had hopes for.

You take my breath away
Leave me choked up.
I make you laugh, I get my jokes up.
So I don’t have to string you along through what I’m feeling when I’m down.

Fancy clown.
This is a piece of my inner calm
My healing.

The better half of me.

My time is slipping past me
Shit’s moving kinda fast
If you look away for a second
It might just slip right through your grasp.

Being unapologetically me
I’m empathetic to the things
That keep our heads down you see
I was sinking.

Bad dreams with my eyes open,
I’m at the brink and
If i tumble off the precipice
That’d probably be bitter sweet.

If heaven was lent to me.
I’m sure I still wouldn’t be able to engrave it in my personality.
Or mark it in my seed.
I’m on my ben Kenobi universe thing.
My mind drifting through the cosmos.

Hoping i’d find the pocket
Where I can go back in time yo
And give myself any sign
I’d make it out better than who I envision i’d be
But That’s just a Nolan fantasy

Catch me at speciality
Losing my self in worlds
That never will be
This is the worse half of me

I long to travel…

I miss the beautiful tones of cultural exchange.

The laughter that transecends religious/ethnic/ or language barriers.

I want to be a tourist again.
To be a volunteer.
To hike and be one with the nature of a country in the most pure of ways.

To make friends and family
To share hearts over good food.

To gain new knowledge that leaves me with better understanding of my role in the life.
To be inspired…

I travel because it is inspiration you see.
It leaves me feeling innovative and creative.

I want to to listen and be opened to perspectives I otherwise would’ve never came across.

To watch eyes dance around a campfire.

To take road trips.

To see the best sunsets.

I want…
To share music.
Like how I introduced A Malaysian friend to Daniel Caesar and then we played that song back about 100 times in that next week.

Or how they had me bumping Tingi Tingi.

I wanna cement my travels.

Make a scrap book.

Tattoo them into my spirit.

My spirit of exploration.

Mostly,
I want To share it with the love of my life.

Oh yeah!
To find out what I’m made of all alla dat dea.

Travel, is otherworldly.

Because it introduces you to other worlds.

Travel is me.

Heres my temporary travel bucket list!

• Lofoten, Norway
• Shizuoka, Japan
• Faroe Islands
• Tuvalu
• Seceda/Positano, Italy
• Valle Verzasca, Switzerland
• Cartagena*
• Seoul*

*where ever else bbg wants to travel*

After meeting Luna at HIDE Chan we take a stroll through the NYC night life. This truly is the city that never sleeps. A city that gives second chances. The best city on Earth.

We caught up over dinner. And now we’re strolling. I decide we could catch the late movie. it’s about 9:15 and I know there’s normally a 9:45 movie that we could make if we headed up to lincoln square now. So we hop in an uber and vibe with the driver until we get there.

The ride was pretty silent. Not necassrily awkward, but after not seeing eachother for some time it was a little bit more difficult for me to find the words to fill the smallspaces. So much had changed for the both of us. I was going to be back at my old job soon and she was neck deep in course work. In general i was also much happieer and healthier.

As we pull up to the AMC I walk around to let her out of the car. Her swavorski necklace shimering under the city lights.

We go inside and walk up to the desk and the staff member, Troy, working the ticket booth and after a mini roast sessions he tells me go ahead.

Luna, asks me why we didn’t have to pay and I told her I use to work here so I don’t have to pay depending on who’s working and if they remember me.

We get upstairs and everyone behind the counter greet me with laughs and jokes and lots of free snacks.

We decide to go see the nee Jurassic World movie. And It’s pretty empty inside being that it’s 9:20pm on a Thursday.

As the lights dim and the theater grows loud with action. I can’t help but steal glances at Luna. Watching her reactions to certain scenes. Nervously looking away if I caught her about to look at me.

She glows. She is perfect like the moon.

Be mines now and forever.
Through any kind of weather .
Let's embark on Life's endeavor together.
You couldn't even fathom the pressure,
You released from my soul.
Your burden I'll hold.
Your fewture I'll help mold.
You're the fire to my ice. 
When I'm heated you'd help me cold, or cool off.
You light my path, You're my Rudolph.
And with you I hope this life could turn, 
Into something much greater than we thought it could be.
I hope I build you like you build me.
I hope we see an eternity. 
Maybe three. 
I'd climb mountains and topple towers to make sure you'd have you some ease.
And surely you'll conquer this world. 
or you'll be runnin' it like Garside. 
Or Pharcyde
I hope to keep you by my side. 

One thing I been trying to work through is the concept of time.
I’ve been trying to learn to take my time.
Because the clock I’m working on isn’t my own. The time I have in this earth is limited and could be taken from me whatever.

Whether you beileive in God, which i do, or gods, or something else, or nothing at all I feel we all have some concept of the importance of time. My concept is that time takes no prisoners. If there is anything after this life, or reincarnation, so be it but at the least this physical body will fail me some day.

I just think I know now.
That nothing metaphysical is moving away from you. Like we run and run and run and rush towards things that have no intention to leave us behind.

I.e. Love, or happiness.
So why should I keep racing towards to all my desire for these things… happiness and understanding?

Time wise, the things that matter will always be around.
So take your time.
Learn what makes you happy.
Experiment with the things you wish you could do. (Travel. Write. Scuba Dive). Experiment with your sexuality. Your ideas and beliefs.

Live .

Laugh.

Take time to learn partner.
And learn how to love them.

Learn how to respond to different situations.
Rude coworkers.
Overdemanding bosses. Everyday stress.
And cater to your soul.
Because that’s what hurts the most when you realize you “wasted” what precious time you do have.

Learn to react in real time to what stresses you.
Learn how to handle in time what causes pain.
And by in real time, what i mean is…
Like let’s say someone upsets you
You dont need to strike them or curse at them
Yes feel the anger in real time.
But on your own time respond
So if that’s walking away and coming back five minutes later to address it.
Or Distancing yourself for days or a week until you calm down.
Or even handling it right there and then. Do what works for you.
As long as it’s on your time .

Because This time thing is valuable. Its our most precious resource.

Although, when it comes to the more tangible things.
Like your “Goals and associations”lol .
Time might be pressed. You might need to manuever at different paces. You might need to put things in motion now for longer term goals. Or work quickly to accomplish short term ones.

But remember, time will always be there so manage it wisely.

If you have a five year goal.
Pursue it.
Chase after it.
But if you fail or fall short…

Same with shorter ones.

Adjust.

Extend your timeline or move on.
Set new goals
Learn for your shortcomings.

And I guess most important is to Trust your intuition.
If you feel like everythings speeding past you .
Take a step back and analyze what you can do to catch back up.

If your moving too fast and missing out on the smaller things . Maybe slow down a bit and enjoy them. Cause you might regret it when they’re no longer around.

Take your time.

Healing can happen for us.

I’ve been feeling kind low lately.

Undesirable.

Let’s climb mountains.

Let’s be free.

Meet me at Tilicho Lake. Around 4920 meters above sea level.

I’m at the precipice of the entire world.

I feel so small surrounded by such giants.

I wonder what it’d be like to take to the sky.

To Fly.

I imagine it must be amazing.