Dream Big

When your skin leaves mine I be having withdrawals.
Your brown skin drips so sweet its like I’m caught in your Ebony Falls.
Sparkle your eye’s Ivory like Herbie Hancock,
And serve you like I’m Ebony Maww.
No Salieri Shit,
I wanna be knee deep, explore the sin of your Ebony thoughts.
I wanna learn your Roots, I’m in awe how i get lost all up in your Ebony Art.
It’s like every time you speak, my heart tweaks to the song of your Ebony drawl.  
Sunkissed bliss it’s like you’ve been touched by the Ebony Gods.
Sweet Ebony Jesus. 
Save me a piece of your Ebony Heart. 
Stuck to you, Miles Morales, I know it’s a part of you Ebony Power.
A spell so strong, drenched in the aroma of your Ebony Shower.
And that’s on everything Great in the world that makes you the true obsidian gem that you are. 

The deepest connections, 
Come from the deepest lacking's.
You caught me at my lowest and we grew to better.
My Energy’s slipping.

I'm an artisan, of navigating the art of sin.
I could drive the most religious taste atheist.
Reverse Midas touch. 
if you see that I'm distant,
Then give me distance.
like I'm Rogue or Tomura. 

My grip's crumbling my most valuable things.

Felt left alone when I needed support the most. 
but I got a piece of the peace I need.
A sweet taste of my better days.
Soul saver like true love or good art.
or the cool water from the sand on  Bermuda summer days.

I'm just a moon in your orbit.
but in a good way. 
I was lost in the gravity of you.
Like a song that gives you chills on the first play.

All the parts of you they interest me.
All the parts I've learned.
And all the parts I've yet to see.
Your spirits embedded in my history.

We came from Pennywise’s gutter.
So lets just build in love.
no more fear of what comes next.
We’ll fill the pieces like context clues.
But lets not confuse, our love for the hollywood shit. 
like that movie scene that feels so good, but you just cant relate.
My soul’s yearning for you is deeper than a bottomless pit:
and I'm sure I'll never fill it. 
And if I do it’ll be at my journey’s end.

So many words to finds. 
me and the homies been wolf packed since under 9's
like extended mags.
or upright infinity signs.
Moulding my fewture is like.

The almost 8 minutes it took me to write this poem.
Passion lives here.
in the sweet spot between action and fear.


But til this day i feel im still underachieving.
2022 and my soul’s on the track like my oldest gym sneakers.
We still building a good foundation.
like all that came before us is holding firmly beneath us. 

My hopes Are like prayers drifting to the night sky.
Been working on releasing all my layers. 
Just at the right time.
So i don’t have to face it in a cascading effect.
FroM washing dishes in the back.
To believe in myself. 
I feel amazing and that. 

The world around me plays different as time passes.
I find myself Tip toeing around the damaged walls. 
The broken pieces are littered like shattered glasses.
Fragile hearted but strong willed.
Stand tall.

My lenses are cleansed. 

I withdraw to reconnect.
So if i’m missing just leave me be. 
Evading the sins we became accustomed to.
The sins that made you and me.

We wade in em.
I couldn’t see the better path unless i landed in its place.
My wicked ways. I stayed in em.
Found a safe space in em.

Good memories fade.
While we’re stained by the darker ones.
It’s like my mental bathes in em.

Growth comes from facing the unknown. 
Clock out from my past’s grip.
It’s crazy that time’s getting the best of us.
The older we get the faster it passes.
I miss the old days summer passed slow as molasses. 

And the sun kissed my skin gently. 
Drink your water.
Plant your seed. 
And accept the world’s blessings. 

Please just tell me the truth.
Or it will eat at me.
My mind is decaying like a rotten tooth. 
Feels like I need a change of scenery. 

Young love blossoming to its troubling stage.
What can i say?
My mind’s drifting like the milky way.
And if love is the answer you my Kenneth j. 
A constant debate.
You taste as good as a Ferrero Rocher. 

Our path’s been scorned by our darkest days. 
But We bloom from it.
My heart pounding like a hero that burst into the room gunning. 
Running across the the bridge as wet set our flames upon it.
The ashes we burned in our wake. 
We raise from it. 

And you already know. 
I wanna find your heart like an artichoke.
I gotta build you up.
The art of flow. 
Been in me since a toddler though.
Quid pro quo.

You get what you give.
My purpose and passion been lost to my environment. 
As well as my innocence. 

Stay away from me with your Parker Crane intentions. 
Your snarky tongue. 
The lowest level of villainy. 
Save time. Hoping to build our eternity. 

A day late but here nonetheless...

Pain makes me write easier.
Just scratching the surface, but what I long is much deeper.
Feel my life in my pen.
I know this is the beginning,
But always keeping my eye on the end.

I got a new state of mind though.
Made happiness the center of my life,
Reach to the sun for warmth young Galileo.

I’ve come a long way from who I was in 2013. 
Self deprecation the scene.
Now we out here writing, loving, living life.
Doing all things,
In a manner that reflects who we trying to be.

Godlike.
I search for answers in the dark night.
I thank the cosmos for all I don't know.
And for the signs I see that everything will be alright. 

Aug: 10

My time is here. I look around as things pass me by. I break free of the monotony for just long enough to see my contentment shrouded over me. like a dark cloud lingering above my head blocking my view of the true sun. the light’s different right now because i know that somewhere it’s shining brighter for me. but to find my somewhere. to find my why… i need to dig deeper. to analyse. and what better time than now.? what better place than here?

i know that i have potential in me. potential to lead. potentialto create. i know i can make the people that matter most tobe me proud. i know i can make myself proud.

I love this blog as it’s really pushing me right now. well i guess i’m pushing myself.

Comment some topics for me to right on.

Also maybe comment a book i could read to end out the summer bless.

Listen to that new Lauryn Hill verse on that new Nas joint .

I stand firmly with my feet to the ground.

Arms extended at chest height.

Palms to the wall.

I slow my breathing and calm my mind until i can feel the atoms vibrating inside the wall reverberating in my fingertips.

I count down from ten with every breathe painting myself a clearer picture of what it is i want to do.

Shatter the wall with one push…

I’m feeling burnt.

Ive been going at this since 10 pm last night and now the suns coming up.

Running around the city to all the abandoned Buildings i know. Only managing to shake a few walls and push a few others over. Yet to completely shatter on though…

‘Two years back i travelled to Nepal. While i was trekking the annapurna circuit i met and older lady in a tea shop. She told me she had no family and i was the first person that came to her store that felt familiar. So she wished to leave something to me.

At the time i didnt know the importance of this item.

But the lady told me to proctect this item. Carry it with me at all times.

She told me that at some point. If my heart and mind reached complete peace with myself something deep within me would come to light.

Now obviously i just took the item out of respect. And now i carry it with me because i simply like the style of it. It was a rare beautiful gemstone. One that i couldnt identify no matter how many google searches or people i asked about it.

So i just put it into a necklace, And wear it everyday as a memory of my trip to nepal.

Well yeah, I was out in town last night sitting at this waterfront park called Albuoys Point. Eating a rice and tofu bowl from Misaki. When the gemstone emmitted a blindingly bright green glow.

I just figured a boat that was pulling into the dock must’ve hit the stone the wrong way.

But next thing i knew i dropped to my knee in excrutiating pain .

I curled up into a ball on the grass. And broke out in an extreme sweat. Then the weirdest thing happened.

It looked like the glow from the rock started emitting again but this time it was going into my body.

I mustered up all i had to grip the stone and cover it with my hand but the light still radiated through my hand into my chest.

I passed out. I dont know for how long but when i came to everything felt better. the city around me was still and it must’ve been early in the morning.

I got up and leaned against a tree to catch my breathe a little bit. And the whole tree fell over. I lost my balance and roll in the grass.

Panicking about what happened i get up and go to my bike and push it off the stand .

Pumped up on adrenaline i mustve pushed it so hard the whole front forks of the bike bent inward and the front wheel went flying off.

Being that it was so early i knew my only option was to leave my bike there.Unsure of how to get home i went to lean against the wall and the wall fell over.

The first five minutes after waking up were the craziest.

In panick i went and sat on the edge of the dock for what mustve be an hour before i got up and moved.

I thought to myself

What if i have super strength .

Is this really how it starts.

So i spent the next couple of hours pushing at wall after wall until i got to this moment….

Palms to the wall.

I start to push.

“You know its easier if you enchant the stone”

I jumped back startled. I turn around and see what can only be described as a human sized lizard staring me directly into my eyes. Meeting my eye-line standing probably between 6’2” and 6’4” tall.

“I’ve been watching you since you got the stone. You’ve been the first one on this planet to ever awaken its power”

What are you!? I ask is simple excitement and fear that a lizard was standing tall and talking to me. What is actually going on here

“I’m an intelligent lifeform from a planet far away from this earth of yours. I’ve live a bit over 600 years and never thought i’d see the day the stone awakened on you’re planet”

What do you mean by the stone Awakening i just got this as a gift form a lady in nepal i really don’t even know how i got it to glow like that. I was just chilling at albuoys.

‘Dont worry young man. I’ll explain al in due time. But what you should know is that is seems you have been selected out of a long line of holders of this stone, to be the one that weilds its true power. And really we dont have much time now that your stone has awakened. The third and final stone is sure to follow. You should come with me. We need to get to the third stone now as the godlike threatens to awaken”.

What are you talking about?

‘Theres an old prophecy that says once the true holders of all the stones awaken their power, They must stand together to protect the universe.”

“And well my friend, it seems you’re the second piece of this complex puzzle i’ve devoted my life to solving”

“My species normally lives about 800 years are yours what about 70? We must nit have much time to accomplish our goal of stopping the godlike once it awakens. And truthfully, Ive already heard whisperers across the galaxies that the godlike has already started to stir in its slumber. The prophesized apocalypse bringer hasn’t moved since the dawn of time. And now it seems the time is near. If it awakeens and we are not prepared. Universal destruction will follow.”

I’m confused thiugh. If youve been watching all this time . All these people. Why me. Why wait to it was this late.?

‘The stones choose the true weilder. Ive been spending time travelling between heree and Pantheon, the planet where the other stone lies in wait.’

‘Come with me and i can take you to Pantheon and the third stone and we can begin our preparations. We can be there and back in 10 days.”

“But i have a job. A life. I cant just up and leave. I dont even know you! How can i trust anything you’re saying is true?

‘This is bigger than us. Sorry i forgot to introduce myself. I am, in your language, called One of good fortune.”

“how about i call you Lukcy for short? Hiw can i understand you though?”

‘The technology on my planet is amazing. I have an intergalactic translator with millions of language translations built into my earpiece.”

But over time watching this planet for so long ive learned many of your earths languges as i watched the stone pass from holder to holder. Waiting for this day that it awakened. All the different backgrounds and cultures i learned of has been a blessing to see though, watching your world progress through time has been quite sad. The destruction you brought each other has been sickening.”

Who are you to judge. Sounds like you have the technology to help and just sat and let all this happen anyway”

“Its no my places to interfere with natural proceedings of this world”.

man I just don’t know whats going on. this does sound like the adventure of a lifetime if what tour saying is true though. I can save the universe. and i do love to travel. Another planet would be craZy. Am i going crazy right now it has been a long night. obviously you’re not of this planet but can you show me proof. let me see your stone and your ability.

Lucky flicks out his tongue, it pretty much reaches the ground, and out rolls a stone. Lucky bends do to pickup the stone and presses it to his lips. He starts to whispher, ” Grant me the guidance of all the cosmos, and guide me along the righteous paththe stone truly knows.”

The stone’s core bursts out with a radiant blue glow and lucky disappears.

“You can’t see me can’t you?”

‘Not at all. Where are you right now?’

“Right in front of you. But i’ve altered your mind to make it look like I’m not here”. Lucky reappears.

“You Can hear me right?” i can Hear lucky clear as day but he’s not moving.

‘Telepathy, then?‘ I ask amused. ‘You know what, you can teach me how to draw out this power of mines?”

‘I believe so, though all my knowledge of the stones come from my own experience with them. And the folk lore I’ve come to hear along my travels.”

“So the universe being in danger could all just be some fairy tale?”

“I’m afraid so, but i really believe we should be prepared. especially if we’re the only hope.’

‘Damn Lucky, you’re really banking alot of your life on these stories of yours huh.?’

‘I guess intergalactic travel couldn’t be so bad though huh?’ ‘ man this is alot for one night can i at least sleep on it. see my friends one last time?/’ i ask torn betweenthe call of adventure and the safety of my monotonous everyday routine.

“You know what, take the day to decide. I know this is alot to process. and from what i could see you had a long night. rest up. i’ll meet you outside your house when the sun sets. if you want to come i’ll be leaving for Pantheon to watch over the third stone. if not I’ll be gone come the new day and i wish you luck with your power and stone.”

lucky turns to walk away from and a laser strikes his shoulder from out of nowehre.

“LUCKY”. i take cover behind a nearby dumpster and look to see lucky crawling on the ground shiver in fear of losing his life.

Dammit! ithink to myself i have to try to save him.

i lift up the dumpster to try and throw it to cover luckys body form another strike when i feel a hand on my back and Lucky had already appear behind me.

” lucky i thought you got hit.”

” that’s what i wanted everyonme tothink because i sensed the danger coming. whoever just shot that beam really thinks they hit me. they still think im cowering on the ground there lets stay here and lets see what happens.”

” i think we got him.” this troll looking being says to the second one lagging behind.

“boss i think we finally took out one of the stone weilders.” and to see two stone activated on the same planet on the same day. it must be our luckybreak.” KASMAS is going to pay us the big bucks if we can bring him both stones. lets go take the body’. three more of threes creature appear out from behind a nearby building and drag Luckys fake body into a small alien aircraft tha tjust landed in behind them. this ciruclar disc shaped craft looks barely big enough to fit the five trolls and lukcy but they drag the body of lucky into the ship with them. “we’ll wait and see if the other stone activates again and we’ll take that stone too so be ready” the first troll says to the other ones. they all enter the aircraft and it starts to hover off into the sky. and it disappears as i assumethey probably have some kind of cloaking system to restrict tracking of their movements.

“Lucky what thehell is happening?‘ I whsihper afraid of being overheadby anyone.

“YOOOO did anyone just see that flipping spaceshipp fly offf yooo” i hear someone scream from the edge of the block.

Lucky places his hand on the back of my head. And I instantly know what happened. no explanation needed. since two of the stones had been activated we were now in grave danger of attracting dangerous attention. many people would now be looking for me and my stone for many different reasons and lucky believes we’d be safer together. we must go to the holder of the third stone now before anyone realizes its loaction. and we must leave the planet now because in a few minutes lucky’s illusions on the trolls would wear off and they’d realized they didnt actually have his body and the stone in their possesion.

Yah

P.S.

Daniel Caesar- Are U Okay

WHITE- Frank OCEAN

Ain’t Gon Stop Me- Reggie| A COLORS SHOW

I drop my phone in the snow.

I bend down to pick it up. And check to make sure it’s okay.As I reach to put in back into my picket everything around me slows .

A butterfly that was flying around me stops right before my eyes. All the sounds quiet completely.

My body feels 10x heavier than it ever normally does.The hairs on my arm stand tall and i feel a chill shivers down my spine. I feel the air around me become suffocatingly still.

All i can manage to do is move my eyes. Dart them around to take in my surroundings.

I get a sick feeling in my gut.

And all of a sudden theres a shift in the atmosphere.

An immense presence of feeling like i’m being watched by someone intent on killing me. Bloodlust. I can’t manage to look behind me but the feeling is so excruciatingly poignant.

I close my eyes and take slow deep breaths. I drawn in the energy of nature around me. A long held practice of the elders in my village. A form of meditation that they say if done right. Can lead to superhuman abilities.

I hear a rumble and get jolted out of my trance in an animalistic frenzy. My instincts kick in and before i know it i’m diving out of the way of a falling tree.

“Damn you were able to break the effects of my Time stamp ability nobody’s ever done that before.” I heard a deep voice grumble from behind me.

I lay on the ground and my body feels too heavy to even stand up . Then into my visions steps a giant male. Bulging muscles. He looked to be at least 9 feet tall. Towering over me.

“Get up.” The mans reaches out his hand and pulls me to my feet.

I’m now soaked from landing in all this snow. And i’m start to shiver from this extreme cold.

“Are you the son of Ven?”

‘ I am. But how do you know’

“You’re the last born descendant of the Ancient Sage clan of YVen. I had to make sure you had the ability to break out of my time stamp. No one has ever been able to completely jump while under my ability before though. They special ones can normally only move a single body part at most”.

“Im sorry for catching you off guard like this though i need to be sure it was you.”

‘So you throw a whole tree at me!?!?!?’

Why me though.l?

Im nobody.

Another day. Another blog post.

I let today slip by and didn’t even get to writing much.

But tomorrow I’ll give out somethin special i’m sure of it.

have a peaceful Saturday tomorrow and let’s look for the best in ourselves. I’m really tryingto becoming more and more aware of my shortcomingss. and reallyanalyze howi can grow. so yeah

This ish is harder than i thought it would be. But here goes my post for the day.

Bump that I Don’t Wanna feel No More by Reggie though.

I’ve always been drawn to the places that make me feel the smallest.

Mountains. Rainforests. Plains. The ocean.

I can’t tell you all the emotions i’ve been through while stood out at our Ginesh Himal viewpoint in Chapthok. Watching the top of the world tower down on me. Listening to Chance’s coloring book. Wondering when Frank was gonna make new music. While the world stretched out in front on me. Crying. Laughing. Writing. Singing. Dancing. Watching the sun dance along the mountain ridge as darkness approached. Then watching a thunder storm rage over the range as a true showing of nature anger left me in awe as the thunder boom shook the whole country. I was small.

Or what about the time in Borneo. When Perry, Fakey, Ken, Kunor, Adam, (maybe a few others) and I woke up early to see the sunrise. How awe-strikingly beautiful and overwhelming it was to see the forest come to life. The hum of what I’m guessing were cicadas turned to a belting opera of a song. The sun start to Bob Ross the sky with colour and light. Three hornbills squawking overhead. Flying off into the distance. The flowers start to stand. And I feel small. Lost. Aware of my surroundings. Thankful to the jungle spirits for letting me have that moment. Thankful that I was spending time with good people. Thankful for the love of my life that I was, at that time, interacting with in our earliest stage of speaking. Small.

The time I think I hallucinated a tree walking the plains of Tanzania. We were walking in this plain for a couple hours. And the mountains on the horizon wasn’t getting any bigger. I saw an Eagle fly by (there’s a picture somewhere so i know that existed) and i was thirsty as fuck cause water was hard to come by. Clean water even harder. And I thought i saw a tree. I just remember asking if we could take a break under this one tree. And the person next to me asked what tree. Could they have been hallucinating that there wasn’t a tree there. Probably not. But damn i was exhausted. Thirsty . Low down. Fit. Hot. Wanting some damn water. *Man i want some water right now, lemme fo to the fridge*. But yeah, i had to slow my breathing. Focus on my steps. one Step. One breathe. One moment at a time. And when we got to our campsite best believe it was the hugest relief. Just happy to have the chance to get off my feet. Then that night in my sleep i was attacked by fire ants. I woke up irritated as ish. But then i remember where i was. I was in their world. Rude to sleep on top of their home. And just had to remember I’m such a small part or a global ecosystem.

‘Man scrap that. Bump that Fye Fye by Tobe Nwigwe that mans spews pure energy and Black familihood to a tee.’ I’m hype.

What about all the times I’ve rose to the ocean. it’s the place that’s saved me the most. Chaplin bay. Watch hill park. Flatts inlet. Bermuda has some of the most peaceful and inviting water anywhere in the world. But the world is mostly water. It touches every part of this damn place. I can stand at the edge of a cliff and it would swallow my whole if i fall. But as i look out i realize how small i am. That my horizon is not anyone else’s. Both metaphorically and literally. I see the waves and i’m reminded to look up to the sky and give thanks to the sun and moon. For life and guidance. To God for being that G. And for the universe for taking it easy on me so far. I wonder what waves someone small like me can make. Or do i need to be as big as the moon.

Probably not. As long as the people i love most can see the ripples of whatever i step into We good.

As long as the one I love. Can ride the waves with me. And support me in the lows and highs. We good. and long as the waves carry me forward I’m good.

And it must be okay to be small.

To not know my place. But maybe my place is to be lost along the bigger things. Forever wandering and exploring and expanding myself.

And through every big thin i encounter I carry something new with me and i eventually become big in my own right. And i can be a big thing to something in this world.

I really just want to spread positivity to everyone i know. As always I’m here for anyone reading this. And its always love.

Post S: I’m gonna put on some Audrey Nuna to end the night.

P. script S: im not reading over this bih. Pure red lines and mistakes prolly but we in here day 3/7 .

P.S.S.S. Take a look at some random post related pics in a way

Random thoughts…

• I have a huge lack of understanding of where I’m supposed to be. And how to get there. And what in my life os supposed to be guiding me along and what i should cutting off.
• I’m tryna to learn to be keen with viewing how i interact with the matter around me. And how my actions affect others on this journey.
• I am worth whatever comes my way.
• I am on a wave constantly moving. The ups and downs are natural and you get through them all.
• Give thanks.
• I’m tired a 9:15 this is fire