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there is beauty in the connection. There is something indescribably warming about knowing what you mean to someone. And 2024 i’m open to peace and love and light. I’m open to being cherished like i cherish. I want to continue to pour into her. I want to be her light.
My shoulders are heavy and my chest is pained. My mind never slows. But the one constant in my life is the beauty that is being able to tell someone that they’re my everything. Then to show them everyday. That’s what keeps me going. Her voice is what keeps me sane.I hope 2024 is brighter and lighter.
~Thefewture

i found peace in the heaven you provide. 
i wish someone would love me back to my right mind.
and take my heart in tender hands.
she’s every good thing and walking in her divine plan. 
she’s perfect and i tell her daily.
i want to save her even if nobody cares to saves me.

i

am worth falling into. I’d catch the full brunt of the heaviness your spirit carries. I’d carry your spirit with safe hands. I’d cushion your decline and help you forge a way forward.

i’m worth investing in. The return you’ll see will enrich not only your physical world but the spirit that needs tenderness and prayer.

i’m worth good in love. And to be reassured in love. And to be chosen in love.

I deserve to receive the best. I deserve to be prioritized. Life with me in it is fye fye.
2024

I

look up at the night sky and I’m wondering just where it is you came from. Why did you leave the heavens where you belong to taste mortality? I catch a glimpse of the moon and see your face. Are you her sister? There’s no wonder my tides get pulled into your orbit. 

I’m amazed at what you carry.

I’m awe struck when i see your face.

I’m hopelessly in love with a goddess. 

Me… a mortal with a fickle heart, a weak body, only an ounce of the strength you have. Sometimes all I can do is bask in the glory you bring to earth. 

My words can’t do you justice. My eyes can’t comprehend what they have the pleasure of viewing. My heart longs for your peace. So i pray for you as much as I pray to you. 

Thank you for being here. Thank you for bringing heaven to my earth. 

Peace ✌🏻

I see God in you.
I see proof of heaven’s courts.
I know a goddess in human form when I see one.
I’ll be the sun to your moon if you need love.

I’ll anchor you in storms.
And watch you fly on the good days.
I promise to love you in every good way.

Like I said recently…

I’ve known you for as long as I can remember. I always knew God would send an angel my way. Why he chose to send me his most perfectly crafted one I’ll never be too sure.
I prayed long to cover your 2024.
There’s so much proof of the love God has for me as I walk through everyday life. The first morning breathe. The opportunity to be forgiven as each day offers a clean slate. Sunsets and good music. But there has been no bigger proof that giving me the opportunity to love you. To be challenged by you. To heal, by honouring myself in attempts to help you heal. Because I have to be the best version of myself if I’m going to play muse to heaven’s strongest, kindest, most beautiful angel.
I pray daily for Godly guidance into how to best serve you on your journey. And as a human I’m sure i f*ck up more than I get it right. I can hold that.
Your voice is heaven’s sweetest melody. It… plays the chords of my spirit. It brings me a peace that i could never describe. The sh*t feels like home.
Your smile rivals the beauty of the Himalayas. Rival The beauty of Aphrodite. Your smile resonates with the deepest hues of the warmest sunset. It’s as comforting as looking up and seeing the crescent moon. It plays “obliviate” to my deepest scars.
I know it weighs heavy sometimes and probably more times than it is easy. But I would love to be your light. And I would love to lessen your load. And you’d be the only passenger that my Boeing wings carry like your name was Phil Stringer. And you’d know love. And you’d learn to love yourself through the way I love you. And you’d see the God in yourself. Because within you lies God’s greatest planning. A generational mind. A fabled beauty.

Namaste my love. The light within me acknowledges the light that’s trying to burst through you. I acknowledge the herculean strength you have. I acknowledge you as divine perfection. I acknowledge that God walks beside you. And he sent me to walk behind you in support. I acknowledge the God in you.

We could spend this life shit together.
Build up from this foundation of beach sand.
We can tether each other to the good things along the journey.
Face the challenges my hand in your hand.

Your soul and spirit would be safe with me.
Guided, protected, and prayed for.
I’d fight whatever demons hid behind your red door.

I wish i deserved to be love and upheld.
The way i love and uphold.
That there was value in life by my side.
But those bright eyes could see right through me even when they weren’t in their right mind.

No need to hide.

If I’m everything i wish i was loving me would come easier.
We could leave the mistakes our or past behind and build something unbeatable.
And spend life laughing in the breeze.
I’d get down on one knee again with ease.





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I’ve known you my whole life.

Even before I met you I prayed for someone like you to enter my life. And I had the patience to wait because I knew you’d come along. I knew all the qualities you’d hold and yet you still surpassed every single one of my dreams. I knew how beautiful you’d be but what I didn’t know was that every day you would outgrow the previous one. I didn’t believe someone could get more beautiful every-time you saw them until I saw you over the years. I knew God would have his hands over our union. But I also understood that sometimes we would end up diverging from his divinity. So now I offer my heart back up to him to trust his guidance and borrow his strength. You see I’m not as naturally strong as you are. I have to borrow from the most high. I fall short too much. But I knew the forgiving nature you’d hold. A nurturer. And i knew you’d be every good thing to me. And you proved it. And when I say that God provided every answer to my every prayer through bringing you into my life I truly believe it. How could I cross paths with one of Heaven’s most perfect angels?

Who cares to anchor me?
Who cares to love me right?
Who cares to remind me who I am? 
And hold my lonely hand in the dark of night?
Who wants to take an unloveable soul and love him back to whole? 
Who wants to pour into me as much as I pour into this world? 
Is it time someone holds my heart with gentle hands?
And remind me of all that I truly am?
Because sometimes i tend to forget when 3am visits.
I feel boring and unsatisfying and unwanted to exist with. 
Maybe i’m truly disgusting?
And maybe that’s all i really am…