Release what the pen holds.
It's like im tethered to the free fall. 
I'm saving my bleak soul.
To keep my downs from deepening.
I've been crawling out of rock bottom recently.
Only God knows what she means to me.

Battered and destroyed by my self abuser. 
I know nightmares hide within every sleepness early morning. 
Scared the night sky might refuse me when the time comes.
"Please dont have fun without me" is an anthem.
The rest is what I run from.