Spin 311 by Jordan Ward for me Siri.

How do I break past what my head is keeping me stuck in?

I’ve fallen into too many destructive tendencies. I’ve lost sight of my sense of self. Crazy how one fall can stagnant all the climbing back into myself that I had done. How quickly the demons can steal my sun. It’s hard realizing you’re nobody’s “the one”. I can’t help but compare myself to people I will never be… like what’s so golden about them that’s lacking in me? It doesn’t serve me of course, but it’s the trouble of having my insecurities coming back to the surface. I have to be okay with my lack of friends, my lack of appeal to any significant other. I have to be okay that I’m not enough for most spaces. I have to be enough for myself. I may spend the rest of my life making no new friends…. Finding no more love…. Losing. But as long as I do right by me. And that’s my biggest lesson, to stop allowing people to take me for granted and still hold space in my life. I gave my all to others, now I have to give my all to me.

It’s literally me, my problems, and God.

All i have left rn.

Alone and lonely….

Damaged and disposed…

Unimportant.