I guess the silver lining in all of this is the forced healing. I have no choice but to suffer through this until i become a better version of me. Obviously i was not enough… ok i can’t change that. Can’t take back all the damage i received. I can only strive to be enough for me. And hope someone else will find worth in me. That i won’t be taken for granted. That i won’t have to resonate with Pricetag by Jordan Ward. God has humbled me. Has broken me down. So there has to be a reason. No carrying childhood insecurities into my 30s. I have to forgive myself for being that stupid. I have to stop all the self hatred. Okay i was dumb so what. Fuck.