held it down.
picking myself up from where i left him.
i forgot to put my happy in front of me.
as something i could attain.
i let it stay in my past with the world to blame. 
i'm damaged, destroyed, and destructive. 
3 in 1 of your daily negativity.
steer clear when you see me.
come near if you need me.
i'm a contradiction. 
a man on a mission of healing. 
i just want to know a more solid state of feeling.