I no longer want to take for granted any part of the journey. Even these harder days and lonely nights. I wanted to enjoy this city in some capacity. I want to spend as much time as possible with My landlord and my best friend Zoe. I want to spend endless hours in skype calls. I want to smile and laugh. I want to make at least ONE friend. But all the same I will be grateful even if I make none and have to continue to be alone.

I will be sad about what it is I need to be sad about. I will let go of what no longer needs to carry forward with me. I will slow down when my body tells me to. I will speed up when life requires it. I will listen. I will learn. I will grow through all these failures .

I haven’t been too great recently. But… I’m going to keep going for me at least. No one else caring can’t be an excuse anymore. I need to care. I need to show up for me. I need to heal. I need to.

I’m proud of myself. I’ve been pulling through these daily breakdowns alone. Now it’s time to pick back up. Break outta this low period. Pull myself up. Be productive. Be strong. Be gracious. live in gratitude.

Thank you God.

Thank you MKB.

Thank you me.

Thank you life.