My heart’s as fragile as glass vases.
You were a piece of my mind’s anchor.
Now my peace of mind’s floating away… fleeting.
my confidence is ceasing.
you are probably the worst girl I could’ve got this deep with. 
The love i had was as bottomless as a the Kaiadas leap is.
now the darkness is my own,
but yet you’re the bane of my existence. 
You will stay tucked in my heart’s chamber of dirty secrets.

i’m just tryna stay in it.
letting my mind drift, losing trace of it.
i feel pathetic when i’m facing shit.
i can’t brighten you like they do.
everyone else just seems to free you.
tried my hardest but your walls are stronger than my chisel. 

i feel I’m at war with something i’ll never defeat.
trying not to fall back into the patterns of losing the lighter me.
everyone around me sting me with selfish intentions 
never sure who i should let in.
lost passions , have me trapped deep in my depression.

my heart make be black hole.
my pain sucking in the light from around me.
the hate we spew is sinful.
my only rock has crumbled away 
i guess the sadness gets to us all.

writing to clear all the pain.
to channel my mental rage.
i thought this here was my gift 
but maybe it’s just the catalyst to my Heartbreak’s anonymous.
i just wanna be happier than this.

I’d like to think I’ve grown since this piece called “bruised soul (throwaway)”. But hey now maybe some of it still rings true now?