The weight of my world is starting to sink me in. 
I wanna feel prioritized. 
My deepest fear came true, and yes I am inadequate. 
In all the ways that could matter in her heaven’s eye.

i never was deserving of the peek I had into paradise.
and my birthday showed me what I deserved is the nothing that I received. 

i steep in the depression, because it seems that happy isn’t tailored to fit me.
would you believe i thought i would be enough?
i hear you God.