I've been finding my balance in these harsher realities.


It's me n my damaged ambitions
and the smile that I wear as the farce you see. 



Some demons cannot be exorcised unless you exercise the mind to face the parts you seek...

To run away from because it's hard to carry a heavy heart that’s weak.



I’m done the unhealthy dances of playing hide n seek. 

The visions of my future use to weigh heavy, empty, cold, and bleak. 

Empty handed promises are all that life has been handing me. 

Despite me giving everything to keep myself within the right planning. 



I was too easy to abandon. 



But now i'm growing from what was damaged. 

And pruning what was left standing. 

My roots are much stronger than what you can see up on my branches. 

The heart up on my sleeve is being stitched back together strand by strand. 

My next steps are branching past all that defines me from my past. 

And i'm passing the torch from the younger me who could barely manage. ..

to a growing and healthy man with patience temperament and good manners. 



This attempt the be more than my self limitations matters. 

And i’m grateful for all matters that shaped me as i move towards the fewture that i'm crafting. 



And molding. 



And the promises in love that i’m upholding. 

And to finding meaning even when i feel i’m at my smallest. 



Somedays the heartbreak weighs heavy i guess. 

I carry the weight of the world on my chest. 

And at these hours there’s no one to vent to but God. 



Developing the messaging in the midst of the damage is hard. 

But we gon get through it, even if the bumps and the bruises looks harsh.


Just gonna keep writing until i receive what’s written in the alignment of my stars 

Better from my atoms having collided with her heart. 

Thanking God everyday for the timing to experience his Sistine chapel level art. 



I get to see him in her Eyes and know his guidance through the part. 

She played in answering every prayer that i keep secret and the ones I say out loud. 



Somethings you know right from the start. 



And i’m starting to see A better ending for me even as things settle heavy and lonely. 

I know these lines are helping me find the silver lining in things. 



Aligning my spirit 

Hoping my lyrics reach the God within me. 


I’m outgrowing keeping silent when I’m upset 

I’m redefining my peace. 



Holding the mirror to myself ; hoping to see what i see 

when i see her. 



Trying not to plant any seeds while im hurt. 



Learning what battles are my battles and whats for God. 

Learning to find balance in moments i just need to shut up. 



Tired of GCSE level lessons and tough love. 



I hope to get it right this next year, I’m tired of wasted hours on my life’s punch card.