now i’m no therapist…

but the way through trauma isn’t to drive through it. to run away from the pain of healing. to continue to entertain what traumatizes you. because taking the exit to your healing is scary, and it takes bravery and it takes hard sleepless nights. and looking back to the root causes. and accepting it’s not your fault, even if it happened to you. understand you were strong enough to stay alive during it and now you’re strong enough to move past it. to leave the freeway of self sabotage and destruction. and to continue to be brave. and to acknowledge and accept.

to sit still at the red light. and look forward. and plot what comes after you get off at the exit. and be grateful for the correct things. and acknowledge yourself. then you proceed through the yellow light. the relapses. the pain. the self doubt. the pity. the failures. to take the correct, brave steps. the harder steps. to understand it’s okay to love again. and trust again. and that your best interest is never back on that damn highway that was bringing so much damage. and keeping you stuck. and keeping you away from all the good things and new sights the exit would bring.

so take that turn. enter the exit. and this time refuse to turn back. because that path.. the blinders that come with it… speeding away from yourself. you will lose all the better parts of you. to someone else’s misery. to other’s judgement. to other’s toxicity. to others self hatred.

and it will become harder to see the beauties the world has to offer you when you take that exit.

don’t be afraid to ask for help. don’t be afraid to be honest with yourself. and to make today.. this very moment the moment you stand for yourself. and find the beauty in you.. .because you’re worth it.

p.s. if you read this and need me hmu. i’ll read whatever.