Getting laughed at may be the soundtrack to my october. It’s the moment in my life my mind tortures me with by replaying it over and over and over. It haunts my nightmares, it haunts my woken mind. The healing work to leave this behind, will leave my heart colder.

How can I forgive the unforgivable? How can I learn to reaccept myself?

I know everything is my karma. I don’t quite know what evil I put out that would bring me karma this strong though.. maybe being c*****?

The soundtrack to my fall will be lovesongs and heartbreaks. Everybody plays the fool on repeat. Because why is this one action the one thats defeating me?

I’m lesser.