All the pain I’m going through is well deserved. I’m the villain in this story arc. I can only work to better myself. And forgive myself.

It all leads no where. Time to Disappear to the mountains of Nepal or something. Thats the only place i truly belong. Far away from the world that will never accept me.

Riding around in circles. Eating the breadcrumbs of the trail that just leads me back to my self destruction. I’m alone. The road leads no where but to the waste bin I’m trying to climb out of.

Stay down.

Give up.