You are the wave that destroys. You are the wave that brings newness to me.

I sway in your wake. I float with the ripples of your emotions.

Pushing… me away.

Pulling… my back in and getting me to stay.

Your presence is tidal in size. I drown in your power.

I lose myself.

I look out to the horizon and all i see is the ocean i feel trapped in.

But this ocean also gives me life. And i dont mind. I wanted to be here for eternity. But now the storm clouds roll overhead. your destructiveness rises with your anger. Maybe drowning me is a part of your intention.

Maybe being alone and lost at sea is what i deserve.

Maybe i’ll find myself again. When i wash up on shore torn and battered and beaten.

Maybe i’ll rise up and find a sense of purpose outside of that ocean i once needed. Maybe .

I hope to carry you with me forever. I in all i do.

Dear ocean i love you.