KyAsia told me write words to give away.

I couldn’t grasp the concept of anyone wanting to read words from me. But if anyone’s reading this is for you.

You (whoevers reading) are amazing.

Today i want to write about intentionally practicing the smallest things that make me happy.

Sometimes it’s hard to sit with myself and really find joy in the monotony of life.

But today i have had particular success at finding joy in the littlest things.

I sat half submerged at black bay. Literally sat on the shoreline just looking out to the horizon. In the moment I wanted to try and focus on what it is about bermuda’s pristine crystal clear waters that have always brought me peace.

So i focused on the minutia.

The fish eggs swaying slowly. I reflect now on how Pa White’s rocking chair gave us stories of a world war when I was 3. The details on the beach paying homage to the safe spaces of my childhood. How far i’ve come to now. My life stationary in this moment like the old missile head Pa White had right next to that very rocking chair.

At Black Bay, Fish swam around my toes as they aggressively attacked a peace of sargassum floating less then three feet away. Playful and joyous not minding that I was intruding on their morning snack. A reminder to myself to not let the presence and opinions of others dictate my moves and my emotions. A hard lesson to learn, one that takes studying and practice, but I’ve made good strides at it.

A very tiny crab (not to dissimilar to the one pictured below) peaked out from the rocks only shortly after the fish swam by. The crab tentatively shied away as my giant structure probably made for uneasy times.

I get that, how scary shit can be at times. How hard fears are to face. But attack fears leads to growth. And my obstacle to grow through this week is self love.

Today, Right now i’m sitting at the bus stop longer than i probably needed through the rain. Thats where i started to write this. That’s where i’ll finish this. That’s where tomorrow’s intention will be found. Through reflection and taking the time to actually listen to what I need.

Enjoy Right Now Today for you (reader). I’ve enjoyed writing this for me.

Be intentional in your choices.

Really focus on one thing that brings you joy and connect or rediscover the root of why. Remember that you’re strong enough to make it through this moment.

I’m here for anybody that has nobody, and anybody that needs someone.

Everybody is Something.

~The Fewture

P.S. you are beautiful frfr.