Tonights 2am mind wander…

I’m just here laying uncomfortably, sneezing up a storm, thinking about all the strangers i’ve met. All the little connections that come at a perfect time.

Any exchange that lights up your week.

Or my opportunity to potentially brighten theirs.

Idk, I just think of This one kid i met in Nepal that loved Eminem. We sat in a field and we talked about life and pressure and passion and music. Wanting to escape and then alcoholism. And it made me think how similar we can be. That desire to get out and experience. Finding any way to escape. How the circumstances can be so drastically different but at the same time the desires can be intertwined. Like the cosmos knew we could talk, (for that 45- or was it four hours) and just threw us in each others paths.

You know those converstaions when you lose track of time. It’s kinda amazing how you could have that with a stranger.

Or this one lady at a beach in Borneo. That saw me and a friend of mine wandering aimlessly and decide to invite us over. Then ended up being from a very similar area as him. They ended up being Cousins or something, living one or two villages apart but had Never met. And then we sat and ate, and i sung tingy tingy kinabalu to her. And i remember, in that moment, wishing i took the time to learn more Malay. Like i had once took to learned swahili that has now escaped me. Just so the langauage barrier between us would’ve been lessoned.

Or this one broi i met at the night markets in Cambodia. And how we chopped it up about … i actually dont remeber. But i remember his presence. Not so much his face or even why we connected. But i remember him and being there in that market and talking and laughing.

Or that one couple that asked me if we dyed Our water blue while riding on the bus?

Mama Fatayah that fed me.

Or that time Human by The Killers was playing at that one spot we took a break.

Some strangers stick. And their stories stick.

And maybe i can take something from them. Any of them at any given time. Or give something of myself to them. Positive energy.

And learn to be more patient with my tolerance for small talk. Because that can make the difference to someone’s day.

And maybe in turn that same kindness i extend to strangers, i can learn to extend to mysef everyday.

Cause i feel i’ve been failing alot lately. And ive been judgin myself harshly . And kicking myself. And lingering too long on the mistakes.

Maannnnnnn shout out to all the strangers that stay with us. And shout out to all the ones i may possibly meet further along on the rollercoaster. Wherever you may catch me. On a downward spiral, the moment of anticipation heading up, or rolling back into the bay at the end . I hope we can take something from each other.

Idk though. I just be out here thinking random thoughst and writing em down. It’s late asf.