Hello.

It’s me again just writing down my thoughts as I’m working through them.

So quite often I find myself asking God and/or the Universe for things. Whether that be just watching over my girlfriend, or easing a certain friend’s struggles, or to give me hints that whatever I’m doing is right. I always ask the higher powers to provide that for me.

And a lot of times I feel I don’t receive a response. Or instead of answering one question they just throw another issue at me for me to struggle with. Actually, I tend to think maybe they even forgot about me because I often forget to pray just to give thanks. Who really knows?

You know how sometimes your parents tell you that you just have to learn things “the hard way”. Maybe that’s the response I’ve been getting. The lessons I’m being taught. The Lessons I’m living through to mold me into the person I’m meant to be.

So, what I think now is that maybe no answer, is the answer. Maybe the God-iverse is telling me no. Maybe they’re holding off the blessing because the struggle is what I need to be experiencing at that time.

Maybe this feeling of Hopelessness I can’t escape has a purpose.

Maybe this feeling of having a lack of purpose is right for me.

Maybe it’s all aligning so that when I do find hope and passion I get to enjoy them that much more. After longing them for this long.

Maybe I need to fall.

Fall far and deep so that my spirit can be ready catapult into it’s next stage.

Like a Sling-Shot.

I don’t know.

You know how the further back you pull the sling, The further the object you fire ends up flying.

Maybe that’s the purpose for this stage of my life.

I sure believe it’s so. That this all has a reason. Even though I really don’t like it all that much. Feeling so low so often.

But hey. We Outchea.

Also, side note, take care off yourself. Don’t take too much on. Take care of your mental. Pace yourself from exhausting tendencies.

Align your energy with what matters if you can. Don’t waste too much on the shit that drains you. Cause the time you spend on that you can’t get back.

P.S.

You’re Beautiful.

Believe in yourself.

Chase your dreams.