All things Considered.

I’m at an all time low. There’s parts of me i can’t share on this. Even if theres no where else i can unload.

I just know I’m not happy.

Tired of feeling this feeling of absolute hopelessness.

I posted a picture of myself smiling to my Tumblr blog really i never smile. My mom said that about me once. “That boy never smiles”. She must think i’m miserable.

I’ve just never been confident with myself. Well tbh i think my smile is hideous. So i tend to avoid cameras.

And i’m always left feeling like shit when people ask me to take pictures. But having such a deep insecurity i just can’t. So either way its shitty.

That’s not even what this is about. I feel hopeless. And like I’m a huge bother to everyone around me.

I feel stressed. And worried about my fewture*. I feel alone. And scared about this one thing. I feel like a shell of myself.