I wish

I wish i could wake up tomorrow. And have realized i was living one big nightmare.

To have a reset button.

To be able to start all over again.

A second chance at one of the most meaningful phases of my life.

But that would be too easy.

This lockdown is already hard enough.

But now wallowing in self pity.

Self-hatred.

Disgust….

I don’t think i have it in me.

The strength to pull through this.

The will to forgive myself.

I just hope it gets easier.

I just hope we’re okay.