Oh how i wish it could’ve been different

The pain we put each other through

We fought and argued

Tussled and Bustled

All the past pain we had bottled

We just sprayed at each other

No place to guide it

But at what we had in front of us

Being stuck in one place

We had no choice to but to suck it up

No choice but face it

The damage we were causing

With no known precautions

Boundaries were crossed

And I think both sides were to blame

Strategies became the same

One up the destruction

To cause us more pain

Then we’d go back

To Putting on our fakest smiles

our happiest faces

Gave it all I had

But i guess everything changes

Im the Tormented soul all the angels Missed

Tempted by the Devil’s grip

Tried working with what i had control over

But only ended up making slips

So angry all the time, Always on edge

It was bound to explode the way that it did

Take me to a heartbreakers anonymous

So i can open up

At times it seemed you never gave a fuck, Jane Villanueva

While my heart for you was as bottomless as Kaiadas

While you probably thought i was a big ole’ complainer

A confrontational stranger

So for now I’ll crawl as deep as i can into the pain of my brain

Try to come back to the world after lockdown a completely changed man

I’ll work on me for me

I’m gonna Battle all my demons

Call me Jensen Ackles

Cause it just got a whole lot emptier in my world

And all my darkest thoughts echo.